pt 1: Intro to My Stormy Season

Dear Family,

I am currently in the toughest season of my life. I have never felt so afraid, so lost, so discouraged. I have also never felt so hungry, so thirsty for God’s word and his direction. It’s not a fun experience, but I know that God is in control, because he always is. John 13:7. So, in the months to come, I will be using this blog to dive deeper in the the scary ocean called vulnerability in order to share what God is revealing to me, in me and through my storm. I pray that it blesses you, enables you to strengthen your faith and inspires you to trust God with the humanly impossible. Matthew 19:26. So, Buckle up! Join me on this bumpy ride, for I know that the destination will be greater than my wildest imagination.

This first post does not contain many details, but please be patient and take this journey through my storm. Trust me, and trust the God who speaks through me, for all his ways are purposeful and necessary. Romans 8:28.

I don’t typically allow people to see me weak, to hear me struggle and certainly NOT to see me cry. “Don’t let your weakness show.” Yells the voice in my head. “If you don’t hold it together, they can’t use it to tear you down.” Meanwhile, God urges me to do the opposite. “Noooo, i don’t wanna”, the voice cry’s. “LOL, baby girl you DONT have an option, not according to my plans for you.” Says my Father in Heaven. Hebrews 10:32-36. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.

Lesson 1:

Tears ARE effective prayers. Genuine tears indicate a state of brokenness or emptiness. The Holy Spirit sees us with tears running down our faces, snotty noses and inaudible prayers. He translates and takes those prayers to God in your behalf. Romans 8:26-27. So when you feel broken, lost, empty, pain induced speechlessness -> it’s okay to cry. God sees you and he hears you. When you allow yourself to be that honest with yourself and God, it allows God to build you back up for his glory and according to his will.

I don’t know what storm you’re facing, or how big and scary it feels. However, I do know that you must acknowledge how it feels and bring it to God. It wasn’t until I finally allowed myself to get to this place (face full of tears, snotty nosed, inaudible cries), for God to give me a peace that STILL surpasses my understanding and those around me. It took that moment for me to really HEAR God. THAT was the first step, the first lesson, the first revelation through my stormy season.

Thanks for listening! Stay Tuned!

Your sister in Christ, Mo ❤️