I thought I was gonna start off the New Year with some celebratory “we made it through a crazy year” post…or maybe some inspirational “What are you going to do different? How are you going to endure 2021” type of post. Instead, God sat me down in January. Told me not to release any content. To listen, create, plan, write, but not to release ANYTHING on any platform. So, I didn’t.
Then, over the last few months, I opened my Holistic Nutrition & Wellness Consulting business, continued developing my business strategy and finally made the transition into my final clinical rotations. AND now, I’m back to blogging!!! So Happy (belated) New Year family! Let’s get into today’s post:
Have you ever had a powerful prayer stirring up inside your heart, but fear convinced you to never let it leave your lips? Too afraid of it actually coming to pass. Too afraid that it won’t.
Maybe it’s just the way I experience anxiety; maybe it’s the way the enemy stops me from praying powerful prayers that he know will defeat him.
Is it just me?
Honestly, I’m not sure when this first happened to me. I remember praying powerful and effective prayers as a young child. Fearless. Then, somewhere along the way, I became too afraid that God might misunderstand my prayers. It sounds silly as I type it, but it’s true. That he might answer my prayers “wrong”.
Everytime He allows me to experience a “faith-building opportunity” (aka trials/storms/weakness), it happens again. Actually, as I’m writing this, it just happened to me again. I had one of those moments, while reading and studying the Word, where something really stood out to me. As I was writing it down in my journal and preparing to pray on it, I felt the anxiety rushing towards me. Fear was creeping up on me. I’ve given in before. This time, I decided to pray that faith prayer anyway. I decided that I will no longer allow the enemy to have my words, my prayer, or my faith. I choose to trust in God MORE than I trust in the fear-filled picture of possibilities.
I‘m so excited for the moment that God allows me to see the manifestation of my faith. I can’t wait for him to authorize me to share what he is doing over here in my life.
Until then, I want to encourage you:
Pray THAT prayer! Believe that impossible thing! Rebuke the anxious spirit that wants to devour your faith! Ain’t nobody got time for that! Seriously, we really don’t have time for it. Now is a time to have faith that scares you, faith that overcomes that fear…FAITH that is evidence of what God is getting ready to do in you, for you, and through you.
That’s all for now.
I love you & Jesus loves you even more.